S3E6: Victory Lap With Successful Toy

[00:00:07] Hey, welcome to Verbal Tea, the journaling podcast where we focus more on our own inner voices than the voices of those around us.

[00:00:15] I'm Globe, your host, and each week we explore topics through journal entries based off of journal prompts that I write in our blog.

[00:00:24] You can check out our blog in the show notes if you'd like to write along.

[00:00:29] This month is November, and I know what everybody's thinking. November is Thanksgiving or Mariah Carey Eve, if you respect the order of things, because some people are already calling it Mariah Carey season.

[00:00:43] But that's another thing. Anyway, this month I want to focus on gratitude.

[00:00:49] Last month we dug heavy, we cried, we were vulnerable, discussing domestic violence awareness, mental health, and what we've overcome, and how we've comforted ourselves.

[00:01:00] This month we're going to focus on our inner power. It's all about gratitude, and for today I'm calling this episode The Victory Lap.

[00:01:11] I have one of the biggest winners I've met this year to discuss this with us.

[00:01:18] We're going to discuss our wins and how they're connected to some things that we had to acknowledge and heal within ourselves.

[00:01:26] This guest, you guys, is amazing. Amazing.

[00:01:31] She is an amazing podcaster who interviews all kinds of people and focuses on encouraging people to be positive and walking in their truth.

[00:01:42] She's a business owner. She has dope merchandise that is affirmative because it says successful.

[00:01:49] It's all about success, redefining success for yourself.

[00:01:53] Y'all, she's also an author.

[00:01:56] You guys, I'm excited.

[00:02:00] I'm going to link everything about her in the show notes, but listen, she is a winner.

[00:02:04] And she also has grown and healed and has her own journey, and I'm so excited that she is with us today.

[00:02:12] I am going to introduce you guys, successful toys.

[00:02:17] Hi! Thank you for having me, Kay.

[00:02:20] I'm so nervous, honey.

[00:02:22] Oh.

[00:02:24] Oh my gosh, not you being nervous. I'm nervous.

[00:02:27] Right, right. I don't know why I'm so nervous.

[00:02:32] I'm glad. And just know, you're safe here, okay?

[00:02:38] I know.

[00:02:38] Okay, okay.

[00:02:40] So, before we get into anything, I ask everybody this.

[00:02:44] What is your relationship with journaling?

[00:02:47] Journaling is hard for me, guys.

[00:02:49] Like, she said, we met each other this year, and I told her, which I just noticed that I lied.

[00:02:58] But I told her I was going to start journaling, but I just could never get into it.

[00:03:03] I'm not a writer like that.

[00:03:06] So, yeah, I don't know.

[00:03:08] Like, I'd rather, like, verbally talk than to write.

[00:03:12] Like, it's like, I know what to write, but I can't put it on paper.

[00:03:18] Yeah, and it's true.

[00:03:19] And that's not an uncommon thing.

[00:03:22] It's not a shameful thing.

[00:03:23] Some people just like to get their energy out in a different way.

[00:03:28] And sometimes journaling is just dancing, creating something.

[00:03:34] Podcasting has become a big way for a lot of people to journal.

[00:03:38] They may not see it that way, but they're recording their thoughts and their lives.

[00:03:43] Social media, people use that.

[00:03:45] It can be your own little scrapbook of your wins, your losses, everything.

[00:03:51] It's so crazy because when someone reached out to me, because for some reason, like, I've been getting a lot of magazine submissions.

[00:04:03] And I'd be like, I done did so much.

[00:04:07] Do these people really want to hear, like, everything I done did?

[00:04:11] But it's like, okay, I got to answer this question.

[00:04:14] And again, I go to overthinking because I'm like, okay, how do I put all this together so I can send it to them and write it and stuff?

[00:04:22] So I don't know.

[00:04:24] Even when I was writing my book, it took me six months to write that book because it was just like, I know what to say.

[00:04:30] It's my life.

[00:04:31] I just don't do the writing.

[00:04:37] What is it?

[00:04:37] Is it just pen and paper in general?

[00:04:40] I think it is.

[00:04:41] I think it is.

[00:04:42] Do you know what I feel like it is?

[00:04:44] It just hit me.

[00:04:45] Because when I used to be bad in school and I used to write a thousand times, I would not get in trouble anymore.

[00:04:53] Don't do it.

[00:04:55] It was like, yeah, if I don't have to write, I ain't write.

[00:04:59] So it's just not a safe space.

[00:05:02] And then I told you, too, I think I told you once before, like, when I was younger, I started a diary.

[00:05:09] And when my privacy got invaded, it was just like, all right, I give up because I just feel like it's not safe.

[00:05:17] That makes sense.

[00:05:18] I still have to get you a burn book.

[00:05:21] Oh, yeah.

[00:05:22] I forgot all about it.

[00:05:23] I put the gap in the room off Amazon.

[00:05:25] Yeah.

[00:05:26] Like burn books, that's what a lot of people start off with if they don't feel safe with pen and paper because of, unfortunately, their trust being betrayed.

[00:05:36] They get to write it or they don't want to see it ever again, but they have to.

[00:05:40] Everything we carry has to go somewhere.

[00:05:42] So write it out and then burn it so it's gone.

[00:05:46] And it can be a spiritual, symbolic thing as well.

[00:05:50] You know, like for me, I don't burn things.

[00:05:55] But if I want to release a feeling, I'll dance.

[00:05:59] Or when I shower, I will discuss that feeling and say, like, I'm washing and rinsing it off.

[00:06:04] That's like a symbolic thing for me.

[00:06:06] I did that before.

[00:06:08] And I just, I was, I didn't stay persistent.

[00:06:11] I have a problem with staying persistent.

[00:06:15] Well, that's just because you wear many hats.

[00:06:18] You're so multifaceted.

[00:06:21] Like, just from the short time I've known you, I thought you were just a podcaster at first because that's how we met.

[00:06:28] But you're an author.

[00:06:30] You're a musician.

[00:06:33] That's new to the list, girl.

[00:06:34] That's new.

[00:06:37] Let me, okay.

[00:06:38] Let me not give away the victories, okay?

[00:06:44] I'm excited.

[00:06:45] I'm ready.

[00:06:46] Okay.

[00:06:48] All right.

[00:06:49] So before we begin, you guys, I do want to just say this.

[00:06:51] So I knew that she doesn't journal, like, literally at all.

[00:06:56] But I knew I wanted her on my show because she has an amazing show called Successful Toy Podcast.

[00:07:02] And her personality just shines through.

[00:07:06] And she is always referencing her journey and her growth in her episodes because she just empathizes and connects with people so well.

[00:07:15] So I knew when it came to focusing on gratitude and positivity, that literally matches her brand.

[00:07:20] Like, to a T.

[00:07:24] So, okay.

[00:07:26] I keep saying so, but there's one more thing I had to say.

[00:07:30] November is a big month for her.

[00:07:32] This is when she decided to really walk into her power and start her healing journey.

[00:07:38] And so I was like, this is going to be a great way for her to recap how far she's come.

[00:07:45] Yeah.

[00:07:46] And it's so amazing, y'all.

[00:07:47] It feels so good.

[00:07:48] And it's crazy because I didn't even think about it was this month until you said it backstage.

[00:07:55] And I'm like, oh, yeah, it's the anniversary for me.

[00:07:58] And I wasn't even like, because this is this month right here, y'all.

[00:08:04] I used to hate the month of November.

[00:08:05] So I guess now I'm going to start loving it since I had started my healing journey last year.

[00:08:09] But I used to hate the month of November because November 1st is when my mom took her last birthday.

[00:08:16] Then her birthday is November 27th.

[00:08:19] So last year, November, I just took it upon myself because I was just like tired of beating myself up with everything.

[00:08:27] And I'm like, I need to heal from a lot of past trauma.

[00:08:31] So I took it upon myself and started my own healing journey to where I don't let negativity take me out of character anymore.

[00:08:40] I'm always thinking positive.

[00:08:43] I just want positive around me.

[00:08:46] Like that was my healing journey.

[00:08:49] That was my journey that I took for myself.

[00:08:52] And when I tell y'all I have come a long way because I know how to laugh at things now.

[00:08:57] I know not to let things upset me.

[00:09:00] Can't nobody control my energy, honey.

[00:09:02] I have the power over my own energy.

[00:09:04] And I used to be like that.

[00:09:06] I used to literally let people control my energy.

[00:09:10] I used to be a hothead.

[00:09:12] I used to be all on social media, blasting my business, going back and forth with people.

[00:09:20] Baby, I don't do that no more.

[00:09:21] I laugh and keep it moving.

[00:09:23] And just because I remove myself, that don't mean that it's beef or I hate you.

[00:09:27] It's something that I needed to do for me.

[00:09:31] So that's where I'm at in my life.

[00:09:33] And it feels so good because God literally be showing me who's for me and who's not.

[00:09:41] And I listen to him more.

[00:09:43] I used to listen to him.

[00:09:45] I hear what he's saying and do the total opposite because this is what I want to do.

[00:09:48] Yeah, you telling me to do this, but this is what I want to do.

[00:09:51] But I listen to him.

[00:09:53] And if y'all don't believe that he talked to y'all baby, all you got to do is sit still and let him work.

[00:09:58] God do talks to you.

[00:10:02] It's true.

[00:10:02] And I want to say it looks good.

[00:10:04] Okay.

[00:10:05] Thank you.

[00:10:06] Thank you.

[00:10:07] It looks good.

[00:10:08] You just keep glowing more and more and more.

[00:10:10] And her and I have some commonalities, some common experiences.

[00:10:14] And I've seen how she's come out of those with being true to herself and how the goodness just multiplies just exponentially.

[00:10:24] So what is when you think of like the biggest victory, one of the biggest victories since you started this journey this year?

[00:10:32] What is it?

[00:10:34] Oh, the biggest victory for me is the way that I am blossoming.

[00:10:40] Like I am literally like every day I see the rose opening up more and more and more and more and more.

[00:10:48] And it's crazy because, globe, this is things that I didn't even ask for.

[00:10:55] I didn't even see myself doing.

[00:10:58] It's just people seeing me and acknowledging me and reaching out and want me to be a part of something.

[00:11:05] And I'm like, what?

[00:11:07] Little old me?

[00:11:09] They'll just be minding her business and just staying consistent?

[00:11:13] Little old me?

[00:11:14] But people love that.

[00:11:16] People love that.

[00:11:17] People literally, I literally was told today that they was watching me and they seen how hard I be working.

[00:11:25] And they was like, man, this girl be working.

[00:11:29] And I'm like, listen, whatever my name is attached to, I'm going to go hard for it.

[00:11:34] And that's just how I am.

[00:11:36] And that's what made them ask me to be a part of the magazine.

[00:11:41] Who would have thought me?

[00:11:43] Someone from Belglade, Florida, then finished high school, then a editor in a magazine.

[00:11:49] Yes.

[00:11:51] Who?

[00:11:51] Not me.

[00:11:52] You want me?

[00:11:53] So, and I love the fact that they gave me the section that I am good at, which is business.

[00:12:01] So, I am the editor of Unspurge magazine.

[00:12:05] So, I love that for me.

[00:12:07] That was like a big, big thing for me.

[00:12:10] And I'm like, look at me, Mitchis.

[00:12:15] And it's so good.

[00:12:17] As an avid reader, I love that there is now a Black-centered magazine today.

[00:12:23] Because I envy when people talk about all of the older publications that used to focus on Black entertainment.

[00:12:30] I feel like it's just lacking now.

[00:12:32] We have the podcast.

[00:12:33] And I'm like, I want something.

[00:12:34] I want to grab something and be able to read it to my kids so they can know what's going on.

[00:12:40] Right.

[00:12:43] And it was so crazy because when you sent that to me, I was like, yep, she's reading Unspurge.

[00:12:49] Yes.

[00:12:49] I was like, ah, because I just thought it was cool.

[00:12:52] And so, I'm reading it.

[00:12:53] Then I see your face.

[00:12:54] I'm like, ah, it's totally.

[00:12:57] And you know what, too, Globe?

[00:12:58] I learned how to keep my wins to myself because everybody don't be happy for you.

[00:13:03] So, that's one of the things I learned to hear from, too, because I used to be the person that broadcast my every move.

[00:13:12] And then when the move don't move no more, you're wondering, well, what happened?

[00:13:17] It was right there.

[00:13:19] I had it.

[00:13:20] And the next thing you know, it's gone.

[00:13:23] It was gone.

[00:13:24] It left because you broadcast it to the world before it was sealed.

[00:13:29] And they preyed on your downfall.

[00:13:31] And that's how it got taken away from you.

[00:13:33] So, I learned how to be quiet and do a kindred pop out and show them.

[00:13:38] No, no, absolutely.

[00:13:39] You do.

[00:13:40] Like, it's almost like pregnancies for me.

[00:13:43] And this is kind of old school.

[00:13:46] But I don't like to, when I'm pregnant, I don't like to broadcast it.

[00:13:50] And you know how they say, like, for the first 12 weeks, you keep it to yourself.

[00:13:53] I'm keeping it to myself until I feel them kick.

[00:13:57] You know, just because I'm manifesting just goodness.

[00:14:00] I don't want anybody speaking over that.

[00:14:04] When you have something brewing, sometimes you have to keep it.

[00:14:08] Keep it locked tight.

[00:14:09] Because as powerful as we are, we also can open the gates to unwanted energy by broadcasting to the wrong people.

[00:14:20] Yep.

[00:14:21] So, I learned that.

[00:14:24] That was part of my healing journey, too.

[00:14:26] So, yeah.

[00:14:28] I did.

[00:14:30] And you do.

[00:14:31] You're so, so quiet.

[00:14:32] I just, I feel like, especially within the last few months, every few weeks, it's a new big win.

[00:14:41] Like, you have been cooking.

[00:14:45] I'm telling y'all, I don't know where it's coming from, man.

[00:14:47] I don't know where it's coming from.

[00:14:49] And it was, I don't know if you know him, but he's a big time blogger that's been blogging since, I think he said 2019.

[00:15:00] And on Facebook, his name is Teriyan Kardashian, something like that.

[00:15:11] But he also reached out to me, and he made a post, and he tagged, like, all these big bloggers.

[00:15:19] And I was kind of like, it was kind of like a couple podcasts, but I think I was kind of like the only few podcasts.

[00:15:27] But I was the only podcast.

[00:15:29] Everybody else was bloggers.

[00:15:30] And he tagged me into this long post that he made pouring out his heart and stuff.

[00:15:35] And I was like, he put my podcast up there with all them people.

[00:15:43] So I told him, I was like, this brought tears to my eyes because knowing your stature and it's like, I'd be happy when you just respond back to me.

[00:15:57] And then you come on my page and you interact.

[00:16:00] He told me, he said, I love what you're doing.

[00:16:04] Keep it up.

[00:16:05] I love how you interact with your followers.

[00:16:08] He said, that's what makes it personal for me.

[00:16:11] Because even though we don't know you, we feel like we know you.

[00:16:15] He said, so just keep doing that.

[00:16:18] And I was like, okay.

[00:16:21] Because it's like, girl, you're getting the knowledge.

[00:16:25] You're getting, like, people, they looking.

[00:16:27] You ain't thinking nobody watching you.

[00:16:29] Because when I used to be live, before I met y'all, it used to be nobody watching my lives.

[00:16:36] They watch it afterwards.

[00:16:38] But not on there.

[00:16:40] And then when I met y'all, y'all was on there.

[00:16:42] But I'm okay without nobody watching my live.

[00:16:46] Because as long as over there on Apple, iHeartRadio, and Spotify, the mills going up.

[00:16:54] I don't care who's not watching my live.

[00:16:56] So that's, too, what made me go to auto.

[00:16:59] Because I'm like, my listeners in other countries, they listening and they downloading my podcast.

[00:17:08] So that's who I'm going to cater to.

[00:17:09] And that's where I'm at with it now.

[00:17:12] Right.

[00:17:12] And you're just walking.

[00:17:14] And you, you're being true to you.

[00:17:15] You're not trying to be anything else.

[00:17:18] And I really feel like that's what people need to know.

[00:17:23] There are all these marketing strategies that are like, be this, be that.

[00:17:26] All these people are telling you to be something.

[00:17:29] When what people respond to the most is being yourself.

[00:17:33] Truly, I have even felt it.

[00:17:36] I'm still in the baby phases.

[00:17:38] Y'all know I'm in the baby phases.

[00:17:39] But even with me just being like, you know what?

[00:17:42] This is my purpose.

[00:17:43] This is what I want to pour my heart into because it's where my heart is.

[00:17:47] That is what bears the most fruit for me.

[00:17:49] Yeah.

[00:17:50] And I see you do it.

[00:17:52] This whole time, you haven't switched up at all.

[00:17:55] No, like toy is going to be toy anywhere.

[00:17:58] And if she can't be toy there, she won't be there.

[00:18:02] No.

[00:18:03] And you got to understand that you're not for everybody anyways.

[00:18:07] You're not for everybody.

[00:18:09] And I'm not trying to be for everybody.

[00:18:11] I'm trying to be for people that can resonate with me and understand me.

[00:18:16] I don't want to dummy down myself because, oh, she cussed too much.

[00:18:21] I know when to cuss and when not to cuss when I have my guests.

[00:18:25] I know that.

[00:18:26] I know I can look at a picture and tell, okay, don't cuss when you have this person on the show.

[00:18:32] All right.

[00:18:33] Yeah.

[00:18:33] You can cuss.

[00:18:34] And then I won't cuss.

[00:18:36] And then when they cuss, I'll be like, oh, we can do that?

[00:18:38] This is what we're doing?

[00:18:40] Oh, okay.

[00:18:40] But I'm still going to always be myself, but I don't always have to cuss.

[00:18:44] But I'm still going to be myself.

[00:18:46] I'm still going to be this fun, turned up girl on my podcast because I'm going to make my podcast.

[00:18:50] Your interview is going to be fun.

[00:18:52] Everybody, if you go look at my reviews that the people do, the video reviews, what does everybody say?

[00:18:59] I make them comfortable and they will come back.

[00:19:03] And that comes from being comfortable with yourself.

[00:19:05] Like, you're never trying to be somebody.

[00:19:09] And I had someone tell me that a few months ago.

[00:19:12] Like, you seem so self-assured, so it makes me feel safe with you.

[00:19:16] And like, good, because that's what I want.

[00:19:18] Like, I want you to feel as comfortable as I'm feeling.

[00:19:21] Your voice is so calming.

[00:19:23] When I be listening to your shows and I be seeing your videos, I be like, it's her voice for me.

[00:19:29] It's so calming.

[00:19:30] And like, I can be having a bad day and I come across your videos when you promote in your show and stuff.

[00:19:39] And I go and listen.

[00:19:40] I be like, it's her voice.

[00:19:44] You'll make the meanest dog happy if they just listen to your voice.

[00:19:52] And I be like, is it her mic or is it her voice?

[00:19:56] If it's that mic, I want that mic.

[00:19:58] I feel like we might have the same one.

[00:20:00] I want the mic.

[00:20:02] I want it.

[00:20:03] Because I'm like, I'm not for this.

[00:20:06] But yeah.

[00:20:06] Thank you.

[00:20:07] And it's really just because I'm like, I'm just going to be myself.

[00:20:10] Nothing else.

[00:20:11] Just me.

[00:20:13] I like to journal.

[00:20:14] So that's why I'm talking about it.

[00:20:15] I could have talked about anything else.

[00:20:17] You know, I could have talked about burlesque dancing, which I'm still learning.

[00:20:20] Or something else.

[00:20:22] But I'm like, no, this is what I love.

[00:20:23] And this is what I feel is worth talking to people about.

[00:20:29] And gratitude for who you are is where the blessings flow, I feel like.

[00:20:35] And that's what I see in you and a lot of people I admire.

[00:20:38] The gratitude first starts within themselves.

[00:20:41] They're happy for who they are.

[00:20:43] They're proud of who they are.

[00:20:46] And God, the universe, if people respond to that.

[00:20:51] And you have to be happy for other people, too.

[00:20:54] I be happy for people that I don't know.

[00:20:56] Me, too.

[00:20:57] I feel like a fan.

[00:20:59] When I tell you, I be strolling.

[00:21:01] I'll come in and everything.

[00:21:02] And I'll be like, I don't know you.

[00:21:04] But, girl, I'm crying for you.

[00:21:06] Like, I'm so happy for you.

[00:21:08] Keep pushing.

[00:21:09] Like, you can't have that jealous bone in your body.

[00:21:12] Like, you have to be happy for people.

[00:21:15] You can't be mad because somebody is above you.

[00:21:18] Especially if you don't know them.

[00:21:20] Because you don't know what it took for them to get there.

[00:21:22] And me, I love to hear people's background stories.

[00:21:27] Me, too.

[00:21:28] I love to hear that.

[00:21:30] Because it's like, oh, my God, you went through that.

[00:21:33] And look at you.

[00:21:35] Not to bring up, but did you watch The Meg, The Stallion?

[00:21:39] I'm scared, too.

[00:21:40] I keep seeing what people are talking about.

[00:21:42] And I'm like, oh.

[00:21:45] My thing is, like, why is y'all just pointing out that one little thing she lied about sleeping with Tori?

[00:21:53] We already knew that, though.

[00:21:55] Exactly.

[00:21:55] And it's not about that.

[00:21:57] It was you.

[00:21:58] You brought her on your show because she got shot.

[00:22:00] If she wouldn't have got shot, you wouldn't have brought her on your show.

[00:22:02] But I brought her up to say, I already had loved her.

[00:22:08] But watching that last night, I was crying with her.

[00:22:12] Especially when she lost her mom and she still was moving.

[00:22:15] I said, when I play my game on my show and they say, like, if you could be a person for a day, who would you want to be?

[00:22:20] I always say, I want to be Megan The Stallion to see how this girl can be so strong.

[00:22:25] But to be honest, she's only strong in front of us.

[00:22:28] But we see all that behind how she broke down.

[00:22:32] I'm not ready.

[00:22:34] I was like, I love her more.

[00:22:36] Because I always feel like her.

[00:22:38] It's so weird because I'm an Aquarius, too.

[00:22:41] And Aquarius don't really idolize celebrities like the grand masses of people.

[00:22:47] I grew up Christian, so it's kind of like idolatry.

[00:22:49] So I don't see people as more than what they are.

[00:22:52] But with her, just seeing her go through that in the public, I've just always been protective over her.

[00:23:00] I'm just like, all these people coming after her like this, she needs to be protected.

[00:23:06] And so I've always felt protective over her.

[00:23:09] Like, I haven't felt this way about any celebrity, really.

[00:23:13] Because my husband makes fun of me about not crying when celebrities pass or anything like that.

[00:23:18] Because I'm not built like that.

[00:23:20] But for her, I'm just like, protect her.

[00:23:23] All she is doing is trying to be true.

[00:23:25] So I know when I watch this documentary, I'm going to be in my feelings,

[00:23:29] especially learning that she was the only sibling and how close her and her mom were.

[00:23:37] I yelled at the TV last night.

[00:23:39] I was like, I am so happy you didn't hurt yourself behind all this stuff that she was going through.

[00:23:46] Because some people, all that, I'm talking about she showed everything from all the negativity from each blog,

[00:23:56] podcasters, nasty comments that people said he should have shot you in your head.

[00:24:00] Like, she showed all that.

[00:24:02] And I was like, I didn't know it was that bad.

[00:24:05] And for you to be here and pop back out, like, I think I would have killed myself.

[00:24:13] But she said it.

[00:24:14] She was like, I felt like I didn't want to be here no more.

[00:24:17] Because if I'm not here, then I won't have to listen.

[00:24:20] I won't have to hear about it.

[00:24:21] No nothing.

[00:24:22] She's like, but I had to eat that up.

[00:24:23] That girl literally had admitted herself into a program to where that's why she had disappeared off of social media for a while.

[00:24:32] Like, she took a mental break.

[00:24:34] And I was like, I'm glad she did that because I don't think I could have been strong enough.

[00:24:39] And then I was telling my girlfriend, I would have been the type of girl that I would have crashed out on social media.

[00:24:44] Absolutely.

[00:24:44] I know I would have.

[00:24:45] I would have crashed out.

[00:24:46] I always.

[00:24:47] I couldn't do it.

[00:24:48] I would have crashed out.

[00:24:49] So shout out to me.

[00:24:51] I'm sorry.

[00:24:52] No, shout out to her.

[00:24:54] And it's almost like poetry that her documentary came out the month before my gratitude series.

[00:24:59] Because it's so true.

[00:25:02] Like, she knew she had something.

[00:25:03] And shout out to her mom for pouring.

[00:25:06] And all the women in her life that poured into her.

[00:25:10] Because that really is what kept her going throughout all of that.

[00:25:15] Because just loss after loss.

[00:25:17] All her support system gone.

[00:25:20] Gone.

[00:25:20] Gone.

[00:25:20] Including the snake of a best friend.

[00:25:23] But okay.

[00:25:25] Allegedly.

[00:25:26] Whatever.

[00:25:26] Don't sue me.

[00:25:27] Anyway.

[00:25:28] She.

[00:25:29] But she kept being true to herself.

[00:25:31] Right?

[00:25:31] Mm-hmm.

[00:25:32] She.

[00:25:33] She kept grinding.

[00:25:34] She knew her purpose.

[00:25:35] And now she's flourishing.

[00:25:37] And with all of that pain.

[00:25:39] It still hasn't stopped her from being her wholesome, loving self.

[00:25:44] The way she's just taken glow under her wing.

[00:25:48] And I can see the influence that she's had on glow.

[00:25:51] Yeah.

[00:25:52] I love it.

[00:25:53] I love it.

[00:25:54] Like, she's helping elevate her.

[00:25:56] Like.

[00:25:56] Uh-huh.

[00:25:57] And then when they first got together, I used to be like, Mary, don't turn glow out now.

[00:26:03] Turn her out.

[00:26:04] But she turned her out in a good way.

[00:26:06] In a good way.

[00:26:07] I mean, glow.

[00:26:08] Glow is also someone who was unapologetically herself.

[00:26:11] Yeah.

[00:26:11] So, I think that was a good connection.

[00:26:14] Mm-hmm.

[00:26:15] But you can just see how she's.

[00:26:17] I don't even know.

[00:26:18] Like, how she's starting to carry herself.

[00:26:20] And some of the moves she's starting to make.

[00:26:22] You can see that Meg gave her some gems.

[00:26:26] Some professional gems.

[00:26:28] To elevate.

[00:26:29] See, that's the type of people we need.

[00:26:32] Exactly.

[00:26:34] Like.

[00:26:34] But if you have a hater spirit.

[00:26:38] I can't be that person.

[00:26:39] If you are blocking your muscles.

[00:26:41] You can pretend.

[00:26:43] That you're that person.

[00:26:44] But it's going to show.

[00:26:46] When somebody surpasses you.

[00:26:48] Yep.

[00:26:48] And you don't supposed to be like that.

[00:26:50] Because if you call yourself friends with somebody.

[00:26:52] You don't not.

[00:26:54] All right.

[00:26:55] Go ahead.

[00:26:55] No.

[00:26:56] No.

[00:26:57] Speak on it.

[00:26:57] Because.

[00:26:58] It only lasts for so long.

[00:27:01] Because.

[00:27:02] Whether you mean it or not.

[00:27:03] If you are pouring goodness into somebody.

[00:27:05] Even if it is not genuine.

[00:27:08] It's concerned.

[00:27:09] They still going to get that goodness.

[00:27:10] And then.

[00:27:12] Your true colors going to show.

[00:27:13] Yes.

[00:27:14] It's going to start showing.

[00:27:15] And my thing is to.

[00:27:17] People.

[00:27:18] When you're doing stuff for people.

[00:27:21] Even.

[00:27:21] They say it in the Bible.

[00:27:23] When you're doing stuff for people.

[00:27:25] You're supposed to do it from your heart.

[00:27:27] Not doing it.

[00:27:28] To get something in return.

[00:27:30] In return.

[00:27:31] And most of you do things.

[00:27:33] To get stuff in return.

[00:27:34] And that's not what it's supposed to be about.

[00:27:36] That's why.

[00:27:38] Your blessings don't come how they're supposed to.

[00:27:40] Because you're looking for something in return.

[00:27:43] When you help the homeless.

[00:27:45] You're not supposed to record it.

[00:27:49] No one's supposed to know you help the homeless.

[00:27:52] Right.

[00:27:52] I hate that.

[00:27:53] When people take pictures.

[00:27:54] And post it.

[00:27:55] Like don't.

[00:27:56] You did this for attention.

[00:27:58] And for clout.

[00:27:59] And get your neighbors up.

[00:28:00] You didn't do it from the heart.

[00:28:02] That's how.

[00:28:03] When I look.

[00:28:03] When I see that stuff.

[00:28:04] That's what I be saying.

[00:28:05] I was like.

[00:28:05] You ain't do this from the heart.

[00:28:06] You did it to get attention.

[00:28:08] Because you're not supposed to broadcast.

[00:28:10] When you help someone.

[00:28:12] Nope.

[00:28:13] Because that's supposed to just be a win for your heart.

[00:28:15] And a win for them.

[00:28:16] And that's it.

[00:28:17] There are.

[00:28:18] You know.

[00:28:19] People I've given to.

[00:28:20] Poured into.

[00:28:21] You know.

[00:28:22] Had sleepless nights for.

[00:28:24] Just to support them.

[00:28:26] The world will never know.

[00:28:27] Because the world don't need to know.

[00:28:28] The universe.

[00:28:29] The universe knows.

[00:28:30] Because those people are better off for it.

[00:28:32] And that's.

[00:28:33] That is the reward.

[00:28:34] That should.

[00:28:35] And if the reward isn't seeing a person win.

[00:28:38] Then.

[00:28:39] You got to.

[00:28:40] Re-evaluate your heart.

[00:28:41] My mother always said.

[00:28:43] Only give.

[00:28:44] What.

[00:28:45] You're willing to give.

[00:28:46] And receive nothing back for.

[00:28:49] Thank you.

[00:28:50] Let me tell you something.

[00:28:51] You can always hear in somebody.

[00:28:53] In somebody voice.

[00:28:54] Whether it's over the phone or not.

[00:28:57] When they say.

[00:28:58] I just want you to win.

[00:29:00] I'm so happy for you.

[00:29:03] It's the way they said.

[00:29:04] You like.

[00:29:05] Yeah.

[00:29:07] No.

[00:29:07] You're saying that.

[00:29:08] Because that's the right thing to say.

[00:29:10] Like.

[00:29:11] You don't mean it.

[00:29:12] You can hear it.

[00:29:13] I'm like.

[00:29:13] Okay.

[00:29:14] All right.

[00:29:14] Yeah.

[00:29:15] You can hear it.

[00:29:16] It's like.

[00:29:16] A little jealous.

[00:29:17] Like.

[00:29:17] I wish that was me.

[00:29:18] Type shit.

[00:29:20] And you don't have to include everybody on your wins either.

[00:29:24] You know.

[00:29:24] Every.

[00:29:25] Your win is not for everybody.

[00:29:27] So what's for you.

[00:29:28] It's for you.

[00:29:29] And what's for them.

[00:29:30] It's for them.

[00:29:31] If that opportunity come along for them.

[00:29:33] Trust me.

[00:29:34] God gonna whisper in that ear.

[00:29:36] So.

[00:29:37] The verbal team.

[00:29:38] Need to be a part of.

[00:29:40] This.

[00:29:41] Also.

[00:29:42] You feel me?

[00:29:43] But at the same time.

[00:29:47] I don't know.

[00:29:47] I just.

[00:29:49] I just feel like.

[00:29:51] What's for you.

[00:29:52] Is for you.

[00:29:52] You don't have to include everybody.

[00:29:55] Because everybody gonna win different.

[00:29:57] And if that opportunity was for them.

[00:29:59] It would have been presented.

[00:30:00] To them.

[00:30:02] No.

[00:30:02] Absolutely.

[00:30:03] Like.

[00:30:04] Obviously.

[00:30:04] Shoot your shot.

[00:30:05] But it has to be rooted.

[00:30:07] In you.

[00:30:08] Right.

[00:30:09] For example.

[00:30:11] I.

[00:30:11] I want to flex on you a little bit.

[00:30:12] So I'm going to use this as an example.

[00:30:14] Okay.

[00:30:15] So.

[00:30:16] Toy here.

[00:30:17] Is on a song.

[00:30:19] With.

[00:30:20] With Miss Toy.

[00:30:21] Who is a big deal.

[00:30:22] Okay.

[00:30:23] It's a dope song.

[00:30:24] It's called TNT.

[00:30:25] And it's just like.

[00:30:26] It's the turn up vibe with your friends.

[00:30:28] Like.

[00:30:28] When you.

[00:30:28] Are pre-gaming with your homegirls.

[00:30:30] This is the song.

[00:30:31] For real.

[00:30:32] And.

[00:30:34] I love music.

[00:30:35] Okay.

[00:30:36] I love music.

[00:30:37] Miss Toy is fun.

[00:30:39] But.

[00:30:40] I don't want to be on no song.

[00:30:41] Like.

[00:30:41] I don't belong on a song.

[00:30:42] I feel like some people.

[00:30:44] I won't name no names.

[00:30:45] But some people will see that.

[00:30:47] And be like.

[00:30:48] Oh.

[00:30:48] I want to be on this.

[00:30:49] I want to be on a song.

[00:30:50] Even though that's not their wheelhouse.

[00:30:52] Or anything.

[00:30:52] Like.

[00:30:52] Just be true to yourself.

[00:30:54] Right.

[00:30:54] Like.

[00:30:55] Stop trying to bother somebody else.

[00:30:57] For stuff.

[00:30:58] Because.

[00:30:58] If it was for you.

[00:31:00] You would have been did it.

[00:31:01] Exactly.

[00:31:02] You would have been did it.

[00:31:03] If it was for you.

[00:31:04] And it's like.

[00:31:05] Things just.

[00:31:06] Happens.

[00:31:07] Crazy.

[00:31:09] Like.

[00:31:09] We have no.

[00:31:15] So crazy.

[00:31:17] Like.

[00:31:18] You met her.

[00:31:19] Through somebody else.

[00:31:20] That you don't talk to.

[00:31:21] Then I met her.

[00:31:23] Through you.

[00:31:25] But.

[00:31:26] At the same time.

[00:31:28] Like.

[00:31:31] Our bun.

[00:31:32] Is amazing.

[00:31:33] Like.

[00:31:34] Me and Miss Toy be.

[00:31:36] Texting each other.

[00:31:37] Joking through text messages.

[00:31:38] And shit like that.

[00:31:40] Like.

[00:31:40] She just sent me something.

[00:31:41] The other day.

[00:31:42] Girl.

[00:31:42] It was so fucking funny.

[00:31:43] She told my twin.

[00:31:44] It's how you is.

[00:31:45] And.

[00:31:46] Remember.

[00:31:46] It's the TikTok video.

[00:31:48] What are the.

[00:31:49] These.

[00:31:49] This little boy was singing.

[00:31:51] Um.

[00:31:52] The twin.

[00:31:54] What have you.

[00:31:55] And they was in the bathroom.

[00:31:56] And.

[00:31:57] Uh.

[00:31:57] I think that was their daddy.

[00:31:58] That they was singing to it.

[00:31:59] They was in a dance.

[00:32:00] And so that's why she sent that to me.

[00:32:01] She's like.

[00:32:02] Twin is you.

[00:32:02] I said.

[00:32:03] Bro.

[00:32:04] When I meet you in person.

[00:32:05] That's just how I'm gonna be.

[00:32:06] I'm gonna just gonna run up to you.

[00:32:07] And say.

[00:32:07] Twin.

[00:32:08] What have you.

[00:32:09] Like.

[00:32:10] That's.

[00:32:10] We play.

[00:32:11] Like.

[00:32:11] We have that type of.

[00:32:13] Connection.

[00:32:14] And like.

[00:32:14] She told me.

[00:32:15] Twin.

[00:32:16] In the music.

[00:32:17] You're gonna make it.

[00:32:18] Because of your personality.

[00:32:19] And you funny as fuck.

[00:32:21] She was like.

[00:32:21] To be in the music industry.

[00:32:22] You have to have personality.

[00:32:24] Yep.

[00:32:25] Exactly.

[00:32:27] I got a new song coming out y'all.

[00:32:29] Oh.

[00:32:30] You do?

[00:32:30] Another one?

[00:32:31] Yeah.

[00:32:32] It's gonna be a drill song though.

[00:32:34] Oh.

[00:32:35] Really?

[00:32:35] Okay.

[00:32:36] Okay.

[00:32:37] I'm looking forward to it.

[00:32:37] I have to really show my rapping skills.

[00:32:40] You know.

[00:32:40] The drill song's gonna be fast.

[00:32:42] So yeah.

[00:32:44] And I'm also.

[00:32:45] I'm.

[00:32:45] I don't know if you know.

[00:32:47] But I'm also signed to.

[00:32:48] Um.

[00:32:50] Geo Entertainment Inc.

[00:32:51] That's Miss Toy Record Label.

[00:32:53] So yeah.

[00:32:55] Let's see.

[00:32:56] If that's.

[00:32:57] Somebody's.

[00:32:58] I love it.

[00:33:00] I love it.

[00:33:00] It's just.

[00:33:01] And especially in this digital age.

[00:33:04] All you have to do is be yourself.

[00:33:06] If people will respond to it.

[00:33:08] And the sky.

[00:33:10] Is the limit.

[00:33:12] Literally.

[00:33:13] And all you have to do.

[00:33:13] You don't have to chase what other people are doing.

[00:33:15] And that's really what I want.

[00:33:17] The tea lights understand.

[00:33:18] Is that.

[00:33:18] You don't have to chase another person's path.

[00:33:21] Right.

[00:33:21] Chase yours.

[00:33:23] Be grateful for everything that's within you.

[00:33:26] Mm-hmm.

[00:33:27] Because even the.

[00:33:28] Even the parts that may be negative about you.

[00:33:31] You can pivot those.

[00:33:34] Into something good for you.

[00:33:36] Like for me.

[00:33:37] I am super.

[00:33:39] Detailed.

[00:33:40] And like.

[00:33:40] I'm always like big picture.

[00:33:42] And it's annoying.

[00:33:43] It could be really annoying.

[00:33:44] But.

[00:33:46] It's brought this beautiful podcast.

[00:33:48] I'm like.

[00:33:48] Let me put my overthinking into something purposeful.

[00:33:51] Right.

[00:33:52] You know.

[00:33:53] So just make those things that feel like they don't belong somewhere.

[00:33:56] Twist them.

[00:33:57] So that they can work for your good.

[00:33:59] Instead of shaming yourself for who you are.

[00:34:01] Exactly.

[00:34:03] You said that.

[00:34:06] I guess that's my something to support.

[00:34:08] You said that.

[00:34:09] I like that.

[00:34:11] But no.

[00:34:12] I just.

[00:34:13] Y'all.

[00:34:13] I am just fangirling over Toy.

[00:34:16] And even if I didn't know you.

[00:34:18] I would.

[00:34:18] Because like you.

[00:34:19] I'm a sucker for wholesome content.

[00:34:21] A sucker for it.

[00:34:23] When I see people's journeys.

[00:34:24] When I see.

[00:34:25] The guys returning from the military.

[00:34:27] To go bond with their families.

[00:34:29] Me.

[00:34:29] I'm just like.

[00:34:30] I'm so glad y'all together.

[00:34:31] Like I'm really one of those people.

[00:34:33] I'm a crybaby too.

[00:34:34] I might not seem like it.

[00:34:35] But I'm definitely a crybaby.

[00:34:37] I love happy moments.

[00:34:39] I love seeing someone doing good.

[00:34:41] Even if I don't know them.

[00:34:43] I embrace it.

[00:34:44] I make sure I comment.

[00:34:46] And let them know like.

[00:34:47] A stranger.

[00:34:48] Because what they say.

[00:34:49] Strangers support you more than your family.

[00:34:52] So I am definitely that stranger.

[00:34:55] That I see happiness.

[00:34:56] I love it.

[00:34:57] I'm here for it.

[00:34:58] Okay.

[00:34:59] I am here for it.

[00:35:01] And you can feel it.

[00:35:02] Like you can.

[00:35:02] When you comment on my stuff or something.

[00:35:04] I'm like.

[00:35:04] Okay.

[00:35:05] I did some.

[00:35:06] I did it.

[00:35:06] I did that.

[00:35:08] And it's so crazy that we feel like that.

[00:35:11] Because it's like.

[00:35:12] I'm just like you.

[00:35:14] But people that don't know me.

[00:35:16] They be thinking like.

[00:35:17] I'm somebody.

[00:35:18] And I be like.

[00:35:20] I'm regular.

[00:35:21] I'm regular.

[00:35:22] Because I get that a lot.

[00:35:24] And I'm like.

[00:35:25] These people looking at me like I'm a celebrity.

[00:35:27] I'm not a celebrity.

[00:35:28] Like.

[00:35:29] I'm just a regular girl from the hood.

[00:35:31] Trying to make it go.

[00:35:32] That is it.

[00:35:34] Like.

[00:35:34] I just feel like.

[00:35:35] I'm going to try something.

[00:35:36] At least one time.

[00:35:37] If it don't work out.

[00:35:38] It don't work out.

[00:35:39] And if it do.

[00:35:40] But lately.

[00:35:41] I don't know.

[00:35:42] Globe.

[00:35:42] I just been feeling like.

[00:35:44] Something's in the pot.

[00:35:45] But I don't know where it's from.

[00:35:46] And when I tell you.

[00:35:47] It's just like.

[00:35:48] The random people.

[00:35:49] Inboxing me.

[00:35:50] Saying.

[00:35:50] You are amazing.

[00:35:52] You finna be this big star.

[00:35:54] And I was like.

[00:35:55] I feel it coming from somewhere.

[00:35:57] But I don't know which angle it's coming from.

[00:35:59] I don't know if it's going to be my podcast.

[00:36:01] The music.

[00:36:01] My brand.

[00:36:03] I don't know where it's going to be.

[00:36:04] The magazines.

[00:36:05] I don't know where it's going to be.

[00:36:06] But it's going to come from somewhere.

[00:36:08] And they told me.

[00:36:09] It's going to come from all of them.

[00:36:11] I was going to say all of it.

[00:36:13] It was like.

[00:36:13] Just be prepared.

[00:36:15] And I was like.

[00:36:16] I'm humble.

[00:36:17] And I'm ready.

[00:36:18] I already done.

[00:36:19] And I told.

[00:36:20] I told them that too.

[00:36:20] I was like.

[00:36:21] I already told God.

[00:36:21] I'm ready.

[00:36:22] I struggled enough.

[00:36:24] I struggled enough.

[00:36:26] Sometimes I'd be like.

[00:36:28] Girl.

[00:36:28] You finna be a 46 year old rapper.

[00:36:30] Oh well.

[00:36:31] They don't know I'm 46.

[00:36:32] I can lie about my age.

[00:36:35] You can if you want.

[00:36:37] But I don't think.

[00:36:38] Look.

[00:36:38] If it's a vibe.

[00:36:39] It's a vibe.

[00:36:41] BBL Jersey.

[00:36:42] That song.

[00:36:43] It's a crazy.

[00:36:44] A crazy song.

[00:36:45] It's old school.

[00:36:47] It sounds like an old man singing it.

[00:36:48] But it's a pop song now.

[00:36:50] So.

[00:36:51] Like.

[00:36:51] Who cares?

[00:36:52] Right.

[00:36:52] There are no rules.

[00:36:53] The rule is.

[00:36:54] Be you.

[00:36:55] That is the most sustainable thing that you can do.

[00:36:58] Is be you.

[00:36:58] Anything will flourish.

[00:37:00] If you.

[00:37:02] Just are truthful with yourself.

[00:37:03] Yeah.

[00:37:04] I just.

[00:37:04] I just want to make good fun music.

[00:37:06] But.

[00:37:07] Be respectful about it.

[00:37:08] I don't want to be one of those people that.

[00:37:11] Have to show my ass and all that.

[00:37:12] I don't do that in my early life.

[00:37:14] I don't show ass on the other man and all that.

[00:37:16] In the clubs.

[00:37:17] I don't want to be that girl.

[00:37:19] But yeah.

[00:37:20] If I get booked for a show.

[00:37:21] Of course I'm going to come out looking sexy.

[00:37:23] But.

[00:37:24] In my music.

[00:37:25] I really don't want to.

[00:37:26] Be that girl.

[00:37:28] That talking about.

[00:37:28] About how they.

[00:37:31] You know.

[00:37:32] So.

[00:37:33] Yeah.

[00:37:34] And that's.

[00:37:34] And that's real.

[00:37:35] Like.

[00:37:37] I know.

[00:37:38] I'm just digressing.

[00:37:39] This is one of my favorite conversations this season.

[00:37:41] Because it's so true.

[00:37:42] All you have to do is be you.

[00:37:44] And don't make it about nobody else.

[00:37:46] It's just like.

[00:37:46] This is what I'm going to do.

[00:37:47] Like.

[00:37:48] Other people.

[00:37:49] They need to live by their own rules.

[00:37:51] And I'm going to live by mine.

[00:37:52] And that's how it should be.

[00:37:53] Instead of like.

[00:37:54] Oh.

[00:37:54] This person ain't doing this.

[00:37:55] Is that.

[00:37:55] That ain't right.

[00:37:56] Like.

[00:37:57] Don't.

[00:37:57] Focus.

[00:37:58] On your path.

[00:38:00] Exactly.

[00:38:01] And then.

[00:38:02] The chips are going to fall where they belong.

[00:38:04] If you.

[00:38:06] Are true to you.

[00:38:07] I know it sounds so cliche.

[00:38:08] But.

[00:38:09] It's no coincidence to me.

[00:38:10] That once you started your healing journey.

[00:38:13] You're like.

[00:38:13] I'm about to get real.

[00:38:14] I'm about to get in there.

[00:38:19] Yeah.

[00:38:19] It's no coincidence to me.

[00:38:21] Because I've always been unapologetic.

[00:38:24] Like.

[00:38:25] I've always been like that.

[00:38:27] I was grown up like that.

[00:38:28] Like.

[00:38:29] My mom didn't bite her tongue to me.

[00:38:31] She didn't hold back for me.

[00:38:33] So.

[00:38:33] I've always been like that.

[00:38:36] But.

[00:38:36] I had to tell myself to.

[00:38:38] Tone it down.

[00:38:40] And know when.

[00:38:42] To say stuff.

[00:38:43] Because sometimes.

[00:38:45] I can say that the wrong minute.

[00:38:47] But.

[00:38:48] That.

[00:38:48] I'm not going to stop being.

[00:38:51] Me.

[00:38:52] And if I see something that's not right.

[00:38:55] And it don't sit well with me.

[00:38:57] I'm going to speak on it.

[00:38:58] Versus.

[00:38:59] Me used to hold it in.

[00:39:01] And just overlook it.

[00:39:02] I'm not doing that no more.

[00:39:04] I'm not.

[00:39:05] I did that in my early life.

[00:39:07] I'm not doing it no more.

[00:39:08] It's either you're going to stop me.

[00:39:10] For who I am.

[00:39:11] Or you don't belong around me.

[00:39:13] Period.

[00:39:14] That's how I look at it now.

[00:39:15] Like.

[00:39:16] Right.

[00:39:16] And it don't have to be no beef.

[00:39:18] No problem.

[00:39:19] Just.

[00:39:20] If it either fits or it don't.

[00:39:22] That's it.

[00:39:23] Because.

[00:39:25] I also had got told.

[00:39:28] That it was said.

[00:39:30] Somebody had wanted to join.

[00:39:32] That little circle.

[00:39:34] But.

[00:39:35] They didn't join it because.

[00:39:37] Of me.

[00:39:39] I was like.

[00:39:42] All they had to do is say a word.

[00:39:43] I would have left and let them join baby.

[00:39:45] It's not that good for me.

[00:39:47] It's not that deep.

[00:39:48] I was different than everybody.

[00:39:50] Anyway.

[00:39:51] I didn't fit in.

[00:39:53] I didn't fit in.

[00:39:54] I didn't.

[00:39:55] I didn't.

[00:39:56] I'm sorry.

[00:39:57] Love.

[00:39:57] I did not fit in.

[00:39:58] And don't sit here and tell me different.

[00:40:00] Because.

[00:40:01] You know.

[00:40:01] I know.

[00:40:02] I did not fit in.

[00:40:03] I'm totally different.

[00:40:05] Bro.

[00:40:05] Everybody that tried to paint this picture.

[00:40:08] Like they so perfect.

[00:40:10] Right.

[00:40:10] Okay.

[00:40:12] You were just honest.

[00:40:13] And.

[00:40:14] People don't like honesty.

[00:40:16] They don't like honesty.

[00:40:17] They like fake and phony.

[00:40:20] They want you to agree with everything they say.

[00:40:22] And I'm not a yes sir ass person.

[00:40:26] That's not me.

[00:40:27] I'm not going to agree with your foolishness.

[00:40:29] If I see you doing something wrong.

[00:40:31] As a friend.

[00:40:32] I'm supposed to be able to call you out on it.

[00:40:34] And we talk about it.

[00:40:36] Exactly.

[00:40:36] Not go blast it on social media.

[00:40:38] We talk about it.

[00:40:40] And we either fix the problem or we don't.

[00:40:42] And we move forward.

[00:40:43] It's not that deep.

[00:40:45] Stuff will never be that deep for me.

[00:40:47] I think.

[00:40:48] When it comes.

[00:40:48] Since we're talking about gratitude.

[00:40:50] I have to say this.

[00:40:51] On the path to gratitude.

[00:40:53] Be honest.

[00:40:54] Because if you're not being honest.

[00:40:55] You are blocking your blessings.

[00:40:57] And if you can't be honest with the people around you.

[00:41:01] They are holding you back.

[00:41:03] Hello.

[00:41:04] It's literally the truth.

[00:41:06] They're holding you back.

[00:41:06] If you can't be honest with the people around you.

[00:41:09] Those aren't the people for you.

[00:41:10] And don't be scared to remove yourself.

[00:41:13] Because I think.

[00:41:14] I think that's.

[00:41:15] I think that what was wrong with me.

[00:41:17] Because.

[00:41:18] Of the connections that she gave me.

[00:41:22] I think that's why I was ignoring.

[00:41:24] When God was telling me to remove myself.

[00:41:26] Because of those connections.

[00:41:28] Because I didn't want nobody.

[00:41:29] To be able to talk about.

[00:41:31] If it wasn't for them.

[00:41:32] I wouldn't have this.

[00:41:34] You feel me?

[00:41:34] So I feel like that's why.

[00:41:37] I still was hanging around.

[00:41:38] But.

[00:41:39] I don't know.

[00:41:40] When God slapped me.

[00:41:41] And said.

[00:41:41] Listen.

[00:41:44] I've been telling you for this.

[00:41:45] For weeks now.

[00:41:46] To remove your stuff.

[00:41:47] And you keep going on and on.

[00:41:48] I ain't gonna save you.

[00:41:49] When you find out.

[00:41:51] Because I know how you go.

[00:41:52] Because I think.

[00:41:53] Whatever it is.

[00:41:54] If I had found out on my own.

[00:41:55] It would have been cute.

[00:41:57] So.

[00:41:58] When he told me that.

[00:41:59] It's like.

[00:42:00] All right.

[00:42:01] I'm walking away.

[00:42:01] I'm moving.

[00:42:02] He was like.

[00:42:02] I'm not saying.

[00:42:03] Don't like him.

[00:42:05] And don't support.

[00:42:05] And all that.

[00:42:06] But I'm just telling you.

[00:42:08] Mm-mm.

[00:42:09] So.

[00:42:09] I just took it as.

[00:42:10] That man seen something.

[00:42:12] That happened.

[00:42:13] I heard.

[00:42:14] Just something that happened.

[00:42:16] And I don't know nothing about.

[00:42:17] And before I find out about it.

[00:42:19] He like.

[00:42:19] Remove yourself.

[00:42:20] Because I know how retarded you can get.

[00:42:23] Yeah.

[00:42:23] I remember.

[00:42:24] I remember coming to you about that.

[00:42:26] And.

[00:42:27] For me.

[00:42:28] I just gotta get so tired.

[00:42:30] And that's what I've learned about myself.

[00:42:33] Is.

[00:42:33] If I'm at war.

[00:42:36] Then I need to.

[00:42:37] I need to.

[00:42:38] Make some cuts.

[00:42:39] Because.

[00:42:39] I was at war with myself.

[00:42:42] Earlier this year.

[00:42:43] About.

[00:42:44] Just time management.

[00:42:46] I already struggle with time management.

[00:42:47] Because of my heart for people.

[00:42:50] And then I'm like.

[00:42:51] Trying to.

[00:42:52] Elevate my life.

[00:42:53] For my family.

[00:42:54] And for myself.

[00:42:55] And I'm like.

[00:42:56] I can't fit all this in.

[00:42:59] So I have to be honest.

[00:43:00] Like.

[00:43:01] What are my priorities?

[00:43:02] So if you guys feel.

[00:43:03] At war.

[00:43:04] With something.

[00:43:06] Write down what's important.

[00:43:07] Just write it down.

[00:43:08] Or type it out.

[00:43:09] And.

[00:43:11] Act in that.

[00:43:12] Mm-hmm.

[00:43:13] And if.

[00:43:14] That means that.

[00:43:15] Certain people have less access to you.

[00:43:18] You're gonna find out.

[00:43:19] If they're your people.

[00:43:20] By how they respond to that.

[00:43:22] If you're like.

[00:43:22] Hey.

[00:43:23] I got this going on.

[00:43:24] So I really have to tunnel in.

[00:43:26] I'm sorry if I'm gonna be quiet.

[00:43:27] But no.

[00:43:28] I'm loving you.

[00:43:29] I'm praying for you.

[00:43:30] But I gotta focus.

[00:43:31] So if you can give me.

[00:43:32] Offer me some grace and support.

[00:43:34] Right.

[00:43:35] And they get upset.

[00:43:38] There goes that.

[00:43:39] There.

[00:43:39] I don't want to say enemy.

[00:43:41] But that's the cut you need to make.

[00:43:43] That's selfishness.

[00:43:44] That is selfish.

[00:43:45] And if you do.

[00:43:46] Have all that.

[00:43:47] And like Kay said.

[00:43:48] You write all this stuff down.

[00:43:50] And try to fit it in.

[00:43:51] Your schedule.

[00:43:51] If you can't fit it.

[00:43:53] Don't make it fit.

[00:43:55] It's okay.

[00:43:56] They not going down.

[00:43:57] They not going down.

[00:43:59] It is okay.

[00:44:01] It's okay.

[00:44:02] Support however you know.

[00:44:04] Best to support.

[00:44:06] And that's.

[00:44:06] That's how I was.

[00:44:07] I'm gonna support the best way I know how to support.

[00:44:09] I'm not doing all that extra stuff.

[00:44:11] That you're requiring.

[00:44:12] I'm not doing it.

[00:44:13] Because support isn't performative.

[00:44:15] Support is.

[00:44:16] It comes from the heart.

[00:44:17] Like.

[00:44:18] Because if you were just.

[00:44:20] In.

[00:44:20] Like.

[00:44:21] If you just go to a show.

[00:44:22] And you just sit there.

[00:44:23] And that's it.

[00:44:23] You just bought the ticket.

[00:44:24] And you sit there.

[00:44:25] You're not putting out any good energy.

[00:44:27] You might as well not have even come.

[00:44:28] Which you can't.

[00:44:29] You can do more good.

[00:44:31] By telling people about the event.

[00:44:33] Or.

[00:44:34] You know.

[00:44:35] Encouraging them.

[00:44:36] Before the event.

[00:44:37] Like you're gonna do awesome.

[00:44:38] Then to just sit there.

[00:44:40] And be.

[00:44:41] Sitting.

[00:44:42] Dead.

[00:44:43] You know what I mean?

[00:44:44] Because it's about your heart.

[00:44:46] It's not about what people see.

[00:44:48] It's about the actual.

[00:44:49] Genuine energy.

[00:44:50] You're putting out there.

[00:44:52] Yeah.

[00:44:52] You had made me think about an event.

[00:44:53] That happened that time.

[00:44:54] And somebody was doing that.

[00:44:56] And I was like.

[00:44:57] What?

[00:44:57] What are you here?

[00:44:58] Like.

[00:44:59] Not talking.

[00:45:00] Not doing nothing.

[00:45:01] Not mingling.

[00:45:02] Why are you here?

[00:45:06] I thought we came here to network.

[00:45:10] Yeah.

[00:45:11] I know it.

[00:45:12] Yep.

[00:45:12] Exactly.

[00:45:13] I'm so glad we had this conversation.

[00:45:16] Before we go.

[00:45:17] We've dropped so many gems.

[00:45:19] In just this heartfelt conversation.

[00:45:21] Because that is the power.

[00:45:23] Of living in your truth.

[00:45:25] No gimmicks.

[00:45:27] Okay.

[00:45:27] No facades.

[00:45:29] Just you.

[00:45:30] Just you.

[00:45:31] I do want us to.

[00:45:33] Have our segment of something to sip on.

[00:45:36] So let me go ahead and play the cute little interlude.

[00:45:50] When it comes to.

[00:45:53] Seeking your victories.

[00:45:56] And walking in your truth.

[00:45:58] What is something you would like to leave our tea lights to sip on?

[00:46:02] Be you.

[00:46:06] Be unapologetically you.

[00:46:08] That word is hard for me to say.

[00:46:10] But I think I said it right.

[00:46:12] But be you.

[00:46:14] You ain't got the.

[00:46:16] You ain't got the.

[00:46:17] I'm trying to stay professional.

[00:46:20] You safe.

[00:46:21] Say it.

[00:46:22] You don't have to kiss ass.

[00:46:24] For people to like you.

[00:46:25] Okay.

[00:46:27] Just focus on you.

[00:46:29] Stay focused.

[00:46:30] Stay humble.

[00:46:31] And stay positive.

[00:46:32] Okay.

[00:46:33] Those are my words that I live by.

[00:46:35] I tell myself this every day.

[00:46:37] That's why I put it on shirt.

[00:46:40] I don't care who don't like me.

[00:46:42] I really don't.

[00:46:44] I'm focused on the people that is loving on me.

[00:46:48] Who is supporting me.

[00:46:51] And support can come from anything.

[00:46:53] Nobody ain't got to always purchase from you.

[00:46:55] Nobody ain't always got to watch your shows.

[00:46:57] It's the small things that count.

[00:46:59] I'm so simple.

[00:47:01] So I just say just be human.

[00:47:04] Don't be a people pleaser.

[00:47:06] I done been there before.

[00:47:07] You don't feel good.

[00:47:08] I hate it.

[00:47:10] I'm glad I grew out of that.

[00:47:13] So just be you.

[00:47:15] Yes.

[00:47:16] Ooh.

[00:47:17] Thank you so much for that.

[00:47:18] I can attest to that.

[00:47:20] I have been shedding my people pleasing abilities.

[00:47:23] Like tendencies.

[00:47:25] And the more I get rid of them.

[00:47:28] The more I'm surrounded by safe people.

[00:47:32] Because being a people pleaser makes you unsafe to yourself.

[00:47:35] Man.

[00:47:36] You gotta read my book.

[00:47:41] In that book I was a people pleaser.

[00:47:46] Had my own mind.

[00:47:48] But didn't follow my own mind.

[00:47:49] At all.

[00:47:50] It's whatever my friends wanted to do.

[00:47:53] Even though I didn't want to do it.

[00:47:54] And I was against it.

[00:47:55] I still did what they wanted to do.

[00:47:58] And in the end.

[00:47:59] I got the shit in and understood.

[00:48:02] That's always how it goes.

[00:48:05] Especially when you're divinely protected.

[00:48:07] You gonna learn the lesson the hard way.

[00:48:09] Right.

[00:48:10] Because it'd be like.

[00:48:11] You don't want to listen to me.

[00:48:12] When you know it's not right.

[00:48:14] And you feel it in your heart.

[00:48:16] It is not right.

[00:48:16] And you still do it.

[00:48:18] I got something for you.

[00:48:20] Yep.

[00:48:21] Just like that.

[00:48:21] All right.

[00:48:21] Let her rip.

[00:48:24] Chiller.

[00:48:26] Chiller.

[00:48:27] Exactly.

[00:48:28] Well thank you so much.

[00:48:30] For that wisdom.

[00:48:31] You guys.

[00:48:32] As you've heard throughout this whole episode.

[00:48:34] There are a lot of things that she's doing.

[00:48:37] And thriving.

[00:48:38] And literally.

[00:48:39] Every single thing.

[00:48:41] So I want to let her tell her.

[00:48:42] Where you guys can follow.

[00:48:43] And support her.

[00:48:44] And just feed some positivity into yourself.

[00:48:47] You can follow me on Facebook.

[00:48:50] At Successful Toy Podcast.

[00:48:52] Instagram.

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[00:48:54] YouTube.

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[00:48:57] My music is out on all streaming platforms.

[00:49:00] It's called TNT.

[00:49:01] Witness Toy.

[00:49:03] And you can.

[00:49:06] Purchase any merch.

[00:49:07] Or just.

[00:49:08] Go take a browse on my website.

[00:49:10] At www.successfultoypodcast.com

[00:49:16] Thank you.

[00:49:17] Thank you.

[00:49:17] Thank you.

[00:49:17] Globe for having me.

[00:49:19] I go from Globe to K.

[00:49:20] Globe to K.

[00:49:22] Of all of it.

[00:49:23] I like Globe.

[00:49:24] Because it's like.

[00:49:25] Universal Appeal.

[00:49:27] And.

[00:49:27] But.

[00:49:28] I'm so glad.

[00:49:29] To have you on.

[00:49:30] This was divine timing.

[00:49:32] As you guys heard.

[00:49:33] I'm an overthinker.

[00:49:34] So.

[00:49:35] Every episode.

[00:49:36] Is so intentional.

[00:49:37] I had.

[00:49:38] When you said November.

[00:49:40] In like.

[00:49:41] August.

[00:49:41] I knew I wanted you.

[00:49:42] On this episode.

[00:49:46] And it's so good.

[00:49:47] I am so excited.

[00:49:48] For listeners to hear it.

[00:49:49] I'm really excited.

[00:49:50] To hear what you guys.

[00:49:52] Say.

[00:49:52] Tea light.

[00:49:53] You know that you can always.

[00:49:54] Stay tuned with us.

[00:49:56] At purple tea time.

[00:49:57] On tiktok and instagram.

[00:49:58] Rebel tea.

[00:49:59] On facebook.

[00:50:00] Or anywhere you stream podcasts.

[00:50:02] I will link.

[00:50:03] The blog.

[00:50:03] In the show notes.

[00:50:04] As well as.

[00:50:05] Where to.

[00:50:06] Support.

[00:50:06] And find successful toys.

[00:50:09] Please.

[00:50:10] Walk in your truth.

[00:50:11] And that is where the gratitude.

[00:50:13] Will flow.

[00:50:13] The blessings flow from that.

[00:50:15] Continue.

[00:50:16] To spend intentional time.

[00:50:18] With your thoughts.

[00:50:19] Focus on thriving.

[00:50:20] Instead of surviving.

[00:50:21] And be well.